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Sunday, September 11, 2011

No time, no patience and no time for patience!


This morning I saw a little boy with his father on his way to school. The most simple word that can be used to describe the scene would still look complicated in front of the simple, unassuming sight that I saw. The father was taking his boy on a 2-wheeler, I cannot name the vehicle. It seemed smaller than a luna, resembled a bicycle but was motor driven. In the middle of the road the vehicle had a break-down. Neither the father nor the little boy showed any sigh of frustration. Instead he got down and started pushing his motor-driven-cycle with the boy still sitting on it. The boy seemed to enjoy this more than when the father ran(rode) the vehicle. The smile on the boy's face sought a smile from the father. They reflected a low-economy lot, but the smiles on their faces were worth a million.
Well, I am not mincing words to articulate what I saw. This exactly is the description of what my retina captured. How many working fathers today have time and patience with their kids like the one I did see?

With money, sophistication, hyped life styles where do we take life simple? We see many parents growing wild waiting for their kids' school bus if it doesn’t come on time. Don’t we lose patience while waiting for our office cab? We have no patience at work, no patience back at home, no time for self, absolutely no time for others.

Over the space of a decade, and across many work-styles and workplaces, no matter how many time-saving tools have come up, people just keep getting busier.  No time for even things we like doing. You wish to pick a gift for your best friend; though you like shopping and you would love to hand-pick the special gift for your special friend, you end up shopping online. After a long day at work, people have no time for self and no patience for family. Even a little boy waiting for his parents to be back from office gets the same treatment. No interest to cook the food we like and savour it; no mind on the things that once were very close to our hearts; no care towards our own health; no time to spare; no time, no patience and no time for patience! Where is this generation heading????

Adding to the post....


One morning

I wish, one morning, the chirping birds wake me
"It’s always me" - yells the alarm bee

I wish, the silvery sun peeps thro the silent window, wish me a happy morning
The screeching cabs across the road sound their horn never fading

I wish, one morning, I wake up to a no-agenda day
The mobile phone beeps a long "TO DO" list in sleep as I still lay

I wish, one morning, the coffee aroma pokes my nostrils while I am still asleep
Lo! The dry coffee machine lies asleep till I fill it with water deep

I wish, one day, just one morning I lead a life unhurried
Tension, anxiety, work, commotion - all masked!!!
Will I get my “one morning”?

Every “you” will wish for an unhurried life away from today’s race. Isn’t it? Am sure you will be able to relate to it!

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Window-side mystery

She stood there, looking outside through the window; Greeshma's blinking eyes made the only noise stirring "arctic silence" that pervaded around. Unconsolidated marine sediments and sandstones marked the scenery outside her lonely stone house. Major part of "Harigundam" was a gently sloping plain except for remnant hills in the eastern region. The aquatic landforms encompassed sand mounds and barrier dunes along the coast on which this little town rested. While the well-known-tourist-attracting sections of Harigundam were characterized by enormous flat sandy beaches, extensive recreation-clubs around water spots protected by pebble ridges, landscapes comprising of low rocks and beautiful cliffs, the area where Greeshma lived had no resemblance to that recreational smudge. 

The color marshy green is something we see in pictures taken off places like Rameshwaram, Srilanka and edited with some decent Photoshop. Everything was "naturally" of that color in Greeshma's neighborhood, even during peak summer. It was the kind of dirty green that’s seen near uninhibited lakes with no air and light to alter the color and odor.

Unlike the rest who would peep out of the house with a hope to see if sun ever stepped out, Greeshma lived in her grey world. Her world of gloom showed not a bit on the freelance writing that she did. Yes, Greeshma was a writer - she wrote for most of the best-selling kids' magazines. Her language was crisp and undemanding unlike few writers (like me) who take pride in using the soggy-ever words from dictionary. How would it be to say “It's an indubitable incongruity for you to instigate such a preposterous notion” in place of a simple line - “It is definitely wrong on your part to have brought out such a silly idea”. Simple words best convey the meaning, rather than fumbling around for several complicated-artistic words; after-all her books were for kids and not for students of literature. The lady in her best-thirties was a favorite to all the kids; even grown-ups  upto 14-15 years old enjoyed her writing; but “ONLY" through her books. This talented young lady was least known as a writer in her neighborhood; she was famously rumored as one having a definite hardness and severity of nature. People hardly knew who and what was she. Was it the always shun house-door, semi-lit living room, silence-filled-dwelling that made people frame such an opinion? Or her austere sense of dressing left such an image?  Dull and deep colored kurtas over jeans, thick black framed spectacles, hair tied in a raised pony-tail, metal strapped watch, tight lips, sharp eyes, sticky cheeks – would be anybody’s description of her, from a glimpse of what they would have captured through her window.

What was the hidden melancholy behind this youthful figure? Even people who shared their house wall with hers couldn’t explore.  Let us not squander our effort on it. 

The outside world that night, and every night in Harigundam was a light-black churning blend of ground and sky. Set against the seamless dark milieu was the outline of a man. He seemed to be a man in his early forties. He had wrapped a scarf around his neck. Not the poking nose, wandering eyes, popping tongue kind, he just walked his way. While crossing Greeshma’s house, he tripped over few sheets of paper outside her window. Least realizing the content in these sheets would bring an enormous turn in his life, he causally picked them up to avoid the ink getting dimmed by the misty night.

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Sagar's was a darker house than Greeshma's. Grey and shade lit his house bright. Was there anything about this corner of the lane which dawned gloom on houses that stationed there? Never know! Sagar stayed in a house adjoining Greeshma's. While we know not the reason for Greeshma's melancholy, Sagar's was a known one. He had a son aged 10 which was affected by Down Syndrome. Often this syndrome is associated with some cognitive impairment and physical growth. 3% of the world population is affected by Down Syndrome. This scene at home explains the "grey and black".

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Back home, Sagar reads from the sheets which he would have picked from-near Greeshma's house. He knew little that his neighbor was a writer, a good one too and one who writes for kids. The sheets that he collected would have inspiring short stories (Greeshma would have drafted them for a magazine and the sheets would have got blown out by the wind). Without conscious effort Sagar starts reading one story from the lot, a little loud and the 10 year-kid, Kausthub would begin to follow the narration. Sagar wouldn’t have noticed this. By the time he finishes reading, Kausthub was seen standing next to him giving a patient ear. Kausthub’s eyes were dancing, his face was seen to glow. It felt to Sagar as if he saw his son come alive after long. Soon Sagar dismisses this momentary hope dubbing it aside as  just a coincidence and that a mere story cannot perk his boy's mental health. He would have tried treatments from various parts of the world for Kausthub. When no science, no medicine had churned a change in him, how could a meager story bring such a transformation?

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New day dawns upon. Morning Sagar would see Kausthub in a state of peace, much better than his usual hyper-active irritated mental status. He would be seen sitting with a book and color pencils sketching a rabbit that the little boy in Greeshma's story did. Sagar now starts to deposit faith in the miracle of her story. Any father would go a mile for his son and the father that Sagar was, the only parent taking care of Kausthub with so much attention and affection decides to go by Greeshma’s window side and look for more miracles. That night, he creeps by Greeshma's window, notices piles of sheets and few magazines on the table. He picks little pages from the table and disappears into the dark. He would read out yet another story to Kausthub.

Improvements would be noticed in the boy; he now seemed to be more of life. Sagar starts to feel positive and gains an unwavering belief that there could be progress in his mentally challenged son and that the cure lied just in few sheets of paper. Greeshma's writing fills in a ray of hope in Sagar's life. The father that cared becomes a mystery by Greeshma's window side.

He would take few papers from her place every night, read them to his son and carefully place them back before anybody could notice. The habit continued with remarkable levels of improvement seen in the young boy. The boy would now mimic things from the stories, he was seen happier than before, his cognitive sense had improved several times...more than anything his hyperactivity could now be brought to control and the boy was quite manageable.

Routine continues till...till Greeshma, one night,  notices somebody by her room window.

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She doesn't scream. She doesn't feel her heart beating fast. She just watches still as the man disappears into dark. Greeshma was a bold lady and to top that she knew there was nothing in her house that people wanted to raid. She did not own expensive things; she had the life of a writer; pens and papers filled her chest, room, table and house. The day next she causally comes up to the table by the side of the window and makes sure her things were intact. (Sagar places back the sheets/magazines everyday with no miss; essentially there is no mystery. He makes sure not to leave behind any mark.)
This runs into days and days into months. Sagar makes sure not to get spotted while sporting a thief. Even if Greeshma observes a shadowy figure by her window, she would shrug that away. She would just go about her day despite the strange appearance by the window.

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Sagar now sees remarkable changes in the young boy. His daily activities improved. The quality of his life got better. The anxiety and panic attacks, mood swings, facial tics saw a positive drift. A state which wasnt cured by any/many specialists/experts could be treated by Greeshma's stories. Though Greeshma was shut in her house, her writings were colorful. A self taught artiste, her stories were cheerful and were laced with creative curing. She painted nature and all its colors through her pen strokes. For the boy who was locked between the walls, this definitely brought a lift.

With positive changes in Kausthub, Sagar decides to stop his window-side mischief and leave the boy to its own course. He would be thanking Greeshma in all his heart but wouldn’t dare to walk upto her and extend his matchless thanks fearing her reputation in the neighborhood as a "non-approachable-stern-angry-young-lady". So thinking, Sagar would look for a peaceful night, lays his head on the bed beside his son..no stealing..no story reading..life s changed so much for good..thoughts flow as he drowns into deep slumber.

The same night Greeshma will spot a mysterious figure, more frail and short, by her window side and the boy would be missing from his bed!


Thursday, July 21, 2011

A story after long


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"Hey Sameer. I'll be late home. Have a code drop and the entire team is under pressure. Please don’t wait for me. Do not bolt, just lock the house and I shall step in late; I have my keys" -said Saadhana and hung her mobile. She indeed had a long tough day, but had already stepped out from office and was standing on the highway that cuts through her office complex. The highway she was on stretched the length of the state. Saadhana would travel kms to her office everyday which was on the other end of the city. Tall buildings stretched before her, running like an impassable barrier. She stood at the corner of the highway where the road found its winding path through village passes connecting to the outskirts. 


The weather was chill. Bangalore nights are known for it, specially if it is during sep-dec. The pre late-night darkness along with the nearby brightness of street and neon lighting hid the road side vendors and even the street from view but for the vehicles roaring by. The cold gushy wind was blowing Saadhana’s long dark hair from behind her ears covering her sight of the approaching vehicles. She wore a blue embroidered saree and a blouse that was a tight long sleeved soft knit fabric of a darker shade than her flowy saree complimenting her skin tone.

A white indica just then sped along eating up miles on the highway. The driver stopped by the yellow post where Saadhana was standing, opened the door briskly and headed to her asking if she was the one who booked the cab to Shyamnagar. Saadhana confirmed the booking that was in her name and after a struggle to pull open the passenger door, she said firmly to the driver "The Tamarind Cove resort. Head to the road adjoining Shyamnagar". She sat comfortably and politely ordered to run close the windows, turn on the ac and music.

Without an obvious stare, the driver side-glanced at her to notice the fresh yellow knot around Saadhana's neck and the thick red sacred powder(kumkum) on her forehead which sent a clueless trace of a newly married lady. In all his heart he wondered what she was running away from or running eagerly towards. Hundreds of questions ran thro' his mind. Was she not happy with her marriage? Was she eloping away? Was it that she was joining her husband who was waiting at the other end? All the "Was she?" "What if? " "But why" ? - questions were silenced by his just-stick-to-duty attitude. As a driver he would see people of many colors and this was yet another to him.

Rafi's music was being played at the back and Saadhana much appreciated it. Shyamnagar approached. Saadhana paid for the cab, thanked the driver with a corporate gesture and got on her way to "The Tamarind Cove resort" whose huge entrance was seen from the end of the road.


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Tamarind Cove was a five star property having best of all facilities and comforts. It had a unique blend of Muzhal and Hindu culture aesthetically designed and architected. The luxurious resort spanned across a sprawling 20 acres plot along the side of palm groves facing the dancing ripples of a waterfall. It made a tranquil spot away from the city life.


Saadhana went there to confirm her booking and monitor herself the decorations and arrangements she had ordered for. She examined everything in her plan, right from the reception, food, the special room, recreation package etc. She did not want her special day to be a miss!
As she was run through her plan by the resort manager, her thoughts wandered
~ imagine being lost in a faraway place surrounded by lush greenery, whispering solitude… imagine being on a dreamy date with your loved one along calm and serene bushes that never seem to end. This was what she longed for, for the past one week. She was happy she planned it well.


Saadhana verified her booking, booked a taxi from the resort to drop her back home. It was past 11 by the time she reached. She quietly slid the door to find Sameer switching TV channels with sleep in his eyes. He gave her a warm hug and enquired how her day was. They then hit the bed.


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Day dawns upon. The early morning bell rings...Both Saadhana and Sameer spring up to the maid servant's wakeup alarm hardly remembering the day that was. They greet each other with a morning kiss and step out to the door. They yawn, stretch and rub the sleep from their eyes, standing at the door expecting the maid servant."Good morning Sir. Here is a booking in your name for an exclusive holiday at Tamarind Cove resort. This is a special gift from Mrs Saadhana Sameer Sir. Wish you a great day Sir." So saying, a driver-in-white hands Sameer a bouquet and says, "I shall wait out to pick you to our resort, Sir". Before he could finish, yet another neatly dressed, driver-looking man appears from behind and greets "Hello, I am  from Tamarind Cove resort. There is a gift for Mrs. Saadhana for a special day-out at our resort. An exquisite gift from Mr Sameer." Saadhana and Sameer look at each other. A sense of surprise runs through their spines. Each had planned the same to party their first month after wedding - "A day out at the most elite resort at the outskirts of the city".. Isn’t this true love, true understanding of what the other person's likes is? Isn’t this an evidence of a real two-way connection? - For a second both get lost in such thoughts. They dismiss one driver and get ready for the most special holiday they ever had.


"Never had such a beautiful day. I truly felt like in a fairy tale being in the arms of the man I loved so much, a whole day just for ourselves in such a beautiful place" - Saadhana tells Sameer on their way back home at the end of their date. Its indeed a day to cherish - adds Sameer. The Honda City that they were in honks at the gate of their apartment to drop the couple back.The driver honks and honks..honks and honks...


beep beep...beep beep....beep beep...beep beep....


trnnn trnnnnn...trnn trnnnnn...


"Hey Saadhana cant you hear the alarm go by for long...get up..get ready for the day..you said you can’t afford a day off..get going honey"..”Oops! I thought that was the car honking..Oh My God! where am I? was that just a dream?? Huh! Never mind, I better get a quick wrap to office." says Saadhana, the sleepy head. "Sweet heart...Love you. It’s been a month since we are married. Sorry I can’t take the day off and make it special for us. Have a meeting with the client." she continues. "Oh that’s alright honey..I thought you wanted some celebration for the day...Was afraid if you had planned something and I couldn’t make to it.. I have a presentation at work. Well, one month isn’t a big deal and it’s to be celebrated by those who just count the days. I wish and entreat we have many such months unfurling into years and years into ages marking this togetherness forever. Isn’t that true celebration???" - ushers Sameer. Few drops roll down from Saadhana's eyes..."Never knew we think so alike! Love you", she whispers(she meant her dream too :)).

Monday, July 4, 2011

Back after a pause


Life has changed in many ways. So have I. For the followers of my blog, I am no longer a person who fears change. Infact I was surprised to know it myself. I ve always seen me as one who would keep away from changes and prefer a monotone regularity. Wow! now things are different!

New place, new people, different roles....and the ONLY advice people gave me to handle this with maturity was
 "Do not try to change the wind, just adjust the sails." - And it works amazingly well.

When we craft a statement that this is what I am, here is what I am going to do, it shuns the door all by itself. Instead embrace who you are, let go things you can’t change, rejoice in the changes that you bring in successfully, adopt (to) the positivity of others. More than anything, define your life. Have a ready Yes; surely ways will fall open such that you can do it all.

“Nothing that is can pause or stay;
The moon will wax, the moon will wane,
The mist and cloud will turn to rain,
The rain to mist and cloud again,
Tomorrow be today.

-HW Longfellow

Thursday, April 7, 2011

A naïve exposé


A day when nothing happens
Yet another when upside down turn things
Thoughts run weird, voice silences
Is this life?

Sun sneaks in
Air feels warmer, opens a new begin
Glide through tough terrains bygone
Life is this too - christen

Silent dances
Animated musicians
Incomplete portraits
Unsung poems
Infinite patterns
Speckled audience
Blurred images of lucid pictures
Nothing seems everything

~Words can only  guess the sense
And sing a melody beyond the fence  
Can a poet play a ploy
On life and its destiny???

Monday, February 7, 2011

Just a thought


There are many mobile service providers competing for name and place in the meadow ; , but tell me if there is one who can provide me this kind of service? Please wait, I shall place me plea :)
(Pardon my ignorance if there already is 1 such.)

The available plans now are plentiful….say for instance 399 Rs. rental every month with any number of free calls to mobiles under same service provider...or 249 Rs. rental with free sms and 600 calls only, over and above 600 calls, per call rate is say x/minute ..say something of this sort.

Can there not be a dynamic plan, where at the end of the month our usage data is analyzed (ofcourse fits only postpaid) and sorted under the plan that suits us best. Say this month, I use my mobile extensively for emailing, the next month there may-be more US calls, month later texting might be my key usage. Anybody out to buy this plan :)? Don’t forget to pay me royalty.

If someone is already offering something similar, pardon my post and please notify me :)

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

GOD KNOWS IT ALL

I have read many moral stories and have even heard from people who could articulate some of them so well that they are spanking new in my memories; But this one - I witnessed from an arm's distance. In fact was a part of it.

My friend Leena hailed from a meager family. She was a brilliant student and managed to do her studies in the best institutions; all by her own, by virtue of her marks she was backed by scholarship everywhere. She had now landed in one of the best MNCs and patiently waited to complete her 5 years service ONLY for the long service award of 5 lakhs. As the eldest daughter she had responsibility to educate her brother, get her younger sister married and clear-off her father's loans. Leena always kept a low profile. I was the only one at work she would speak with. With time I knew her well and also what that 5 lakhs meant to her. It was on Jan 15th that she was going to see her immediate mission come true – she was completing her 5 years in the company on 15th of January. The week of 15th had begun, but with a shocker from HR. The HR manager, an outsider, Mr. Kay Winsley had broadcasted that the service awards were to be discontinued with immediate effect and that people were anyway rewarded with appropriate hikes with each year getting tagged to their experience. Leena was broken. All her hopes were shattered. When she wanted to chat with me I was not around; she had to vent her feelings out with someone. She typed me a mail. 

Hi Kiran,

You try to console me every time I curse my fate.  The ultimate reality is that God isn’t fair. Some people seem to always struggle facing one catastrophe after another with nothing ever going right. What is the fault in me if things go wrong and continue to go wrong with me trying to give the best? Despite my efforts, the life I wish to have is always distant to me and the nearer it gets, farther destiny kicks it.

I have lost faith in everything. My sincere efforts have no place here. It’s all an illusion.

I am very upset, Kiran. Sorry for dumping it on you.

-Leena

Back from my tea break, I opened the outlook to check my mails and decided to read them, with latest first. There were three mails - all from the HR Manager, Kay Winsley. The first mail was a reply to his earlier broadcasted mail: “Correction: Please see the new policy is effective from Feb 1st”.The second mail was a forward from Mr. Kay, but with no subject. That puzzled my mind for a stint till I could open the mail and read its contents. It was Leena's mail to me. She had e-posted it to Mr. Kay by mistake, probably the starting letter “K” was to be blamed. (He had forwarded her-mail-to-me to me. There was only one Kiran in my company and I guess he looked up the data-base for my name). The 3rd unread mail was THE MAIL which had upset Leena – the mail on discontinuing long service rewards. I finished reading my mails to realize it was past 6 and Leena had by then left for the day.

I telephoned her to give the news which at the moment was the only hope to her life. Leena burst in joy.

To this day we do not know if that was just a coincidence, a miracle in blessing or was Mr. Kay so considerate to change the office policy just for the sake of  "one" good worker? Even if he wished, did he have the authority to?

GOD KNOWS IT ALL :)

I can’t forget Leena’s words that she uttered at the emotional moment. “We don’t always understand or want to understand what is in store for us. Call it God, Fate or Destiny – there is something running in the background, but show up in the fore when it feels is the RIGHT time. Focus, sincerity, belief, faith are the investments that pay off. Do not always expect divine rewards; the rewards may come up at divine intervals when it is most needed”!

- This is not in my regular story lines with some interesting twist at the end. Not sure how many will like.